I have started actively seeking new photographers to work with. By actively i mean so far i have already contacted a few of them and dozens of those i have my eye on.
I have no high hopes for this, probably nothing will come out of it but why not give it another go? And isn't going into something whilst trying your best and expecting little from it the best way to approach something? I have tried to be picky about the photographers i have worked so far and sometimes didn't feel very comfortable approaching some of those i really wanted to work with. I want to be involved with shoots with wonderful ideas behind them and tell a story, not just something with a white background and an outfit from my wardrobe.
Never have i been interested in modeling because i want to have pretty pictures of myself but because it is an extension of my creative side, which recently has been slightly dying. So this might do something to reawaken it.
Not only do i want to do a bit of modeling but i really want to get into photographing people and so far already have a few ideas in mind so watch this space.
(Image by Olga Hoffman)
I have never tried to be a film critic, not that often anyway but always thought that I should make my in depth opinions about films I have seen more available. After all I have dedicated three years of my life to the study of the said subject. Also because recently I have a number of films I have absolutely loved.
I will start of with Bonnie and Clyde, a film I have loved for a long time and seeing it on the big screen, despite the various technical problems, I now love even more.
To me it is a story about freedom, being unbound and unchained from the society. Where home is whatever safe house you find for the day.
It is a wonderful love story, demonstrating how it isn’t all about sex, although the subject of Clyde’s strange approach to love making which is no love making at all is often brought up. The two clearly love each other for who they truly are and there are no illusions, they know all there is to know from the very first glance. No walls or barriers were ever put up since they understood that they were going to stick together and experience life. There is nowhere to hide because in many respects they are very alike, desiring the same from life. Bonnie is more restless and a freer spirit. The idea of settling down, looking after a home and bringing up children was not only frightening one but for her it would have been a far worse end than the one she ultimately met.
Bonnie was always on the run from her home, of just being another girl who married just another boy, she wanted to make something different out of her life, wanted to proof to the world that it was possible. But no matter her dislike for the stereotypical cast of life that would have been her future if not for Clyde she always tried to get back home, to see her mother and her family. It was a very evident pull through out the film. However hard we try to ignore where we come from and what our past is it often screams to be acknowledged and remembered, it shapes as who we are, leads us to escape from whatever we don’t like and desire to be somewhere else, to be someone else.
In the age when a woman had a little choice apart from being a wife Bonnie was lucky enough to meet a man like Clyde who let her be free and tried not to rein her in and despite always looking after her he treated her as his equal. He was the new era man who was not threatened by the independence his girlfriend displayed. It could be argued that in the film the pair was gunned down but made heroes not because they robbed a few banks and were a bane in the law enforcements’ backside but because they pointed out what was wrong with the gender inequality at that time, they did things differently. This film fits in nicely with the current social standings, where because of the recent economic downfalls stealing from the major money grabbing organisations might and should be applauded. The Barrow Gang never once stole money from an individual and to my recollection only kill a bank manager and police officers, sympathising with the current desire displayed by many people now to be free of those sometimes oppressive states.
If you have never watched the film go and see it now and if you have seen the film before go and watch it again.
On one sunny autumn day Zombies walked through London, scared a few tourists, danced to Irish folk music and had a lively time. Here is some proof shot with my Zenit of course.
Brighton looks better in film, but then so do most things. Only the last image was shot in digital, the sea was thundering and those two sea gulls just made the shot.
I am now going back to being that person who takes her camera with her to most places she goes, so far i have only done that on sunday but i loved the feeling you get photographing in restaurants and on little streets. Beauty is everywhere in wine glasses, a lamp, i want to capture the things and the people around me, the every day life that i want to make special. My list of the ideas for photoshoots i have is growing, everything from beautiful gothic and romantic gothic shots in forests coloured in yellows and reds and cemeteries to dark, bloody and gruesome. The opening scenes of True Blood made me think of a few new ideas too.
I want to do bad things with you, i want to do bad things to you. This is just an official statement of my intention to return to the world of blogging, here i'll post whatever comes to mind, things that might not even make sense. But making sense is not one of my strongest points anyway.
(I liked this so much, for some reason, that i added this to something i hope will become a book one day). Many of us are always hanging on to the idea that we can still achieve something, even something little. If we work had enought why can't we achieve what we want? But time goes by so quickly and things we do hardly ever matter. I have only been looking for work for about a month now but the idea of working 9am till 6pm really frightens me, and its truly depressing. It's not like my life is full of amazing exitment at the moment, but at least at the moment i am that safe place, where i can do what i want whenever i want. I can read books, play computer games and go out when i please. But it is time to grow up, and not only it is time to grow up but i need to find a job too, moey is something you can't live without. So why have we been really placed on this Earth? So that we would age; and in reality achieve very little, having spent most of our lives working somewhere we don't really like because we need to pay the bills, buy food and generally survive.
I have been known to pass my time attempting to scribble words in hopes of putting half decent sentences together and attempting to capture my world through the lens of a camera.
